Trying another medication

I pushed through and managed to complete my 310,000 step challenge in July. It was hard and I don't think I'd attempt anything as rigourous again. I put a lot of pressure on myself, which wasn't productive.

It did keep the restlessness of the aripiprazole at bay, but now I've decided to come off that medication and I've started an anti depressant again, this time sertraline. I noticed my mood dipping lower and lower into depression, despite the extra exercise these last few weeks.

I've just come off about 6 or 7 days of overlap with these two meds and, it's official, aripiprazole and any anti depressant together give me panic attacks. I had a panic attack at work both on Sunday and Monday and I've been signed off for a week, whilst the sertraline gets into my system and the aripiprazole gets out of my system.

These last few days have been rough, which is why I'm writing my post a little later than usual. Monday night I was not in a good place and did something silly. Tuesday the crisis team called me an ambulance and I went to hospital to get checked over. I didn't stay for the results or a psych evaluation. I know I should have, but the restlessness was kicking in and I couldn't bear to be around older people who were clearly in more physical distress than me. Wednesday I did the right thing and went to the Safe Haven for the evening and this morning I've re-written my crisis plan. I don't think I need the mental health team again, but I am upset about this otherwise clean sheet for approaching the fertility clinic again in the autumn.